One of the other things that happens is messed up sleep. So it's 230am and I've slept for two hours and my rambling brain can't calm down enough to sleep.
I have found and recommend melatonin, it works great. So... Why am I still awake. I guess one of the other self-destructive things I have going for me is ADD and so a lot of the things I know are good for me, like taking my meds or something helpful like melatonin somehow don't happen until I'm at a point that No matter what I do, damage to the next day is done.
So that's the first thing that is loggerhead the day. I'll take my melatonin and get some sleep but I've already failed myself for the day and didn't do myself a solid by being a good night's sleep. I have thought over and over again that I need to just reach over and grab the melatonin and take one or two and be of to sleep but wait, I need to read the news on my BBC app, and while I'm doing that I might as well maximize my time and have the Olympics on well, then I need to pause my news reading to Wikipedia some info from the news or history of bobsled, oh sit take the melatonin, well I will in a second, I need to finish the news first and since I'm at it I might as well check out CNN, I mean I'm already up and I'll take the melatonin in a minute, but air I need to look up this factoid on Wikipedia and so on and so on it goes until it's hours later and I've managed to yet again push the shiny red self-destruct button for today before I've even given it a chance to be a good day.
That was written without periods for a reason, if I don't get a solid break in my thoughts why should you :-)
Side note about melatonin: they sell it in lots of strength levels. You only need 300 micrograms (some times I take two) but know that in your youth the max melatonin you naturally produced was about 300 micrograms so if you buy a 3mg bottle you are taking ten times a natural dose and that's OK for jetlag but not good for nightly use. Just FYI.
Ok I took my pill, I'm gone, good night/morning/whatever.
I have trouble sleeping all the time because my brain wont shut off. I have found that dosing my pills for 2 weeks at a time helps. I take all meds around the same time every night. Try moving your smart devices away from reach. Reading had helped me to get into a better might time routine.
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ReplyDeleteIt comes and goes, but you are on to something, the more I turn off the better I
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