Too long!

I need to write more but there just doesn't seem to be enough time some days,  but it's been too long.

Today was a very good day,  I felt good and then I get home from work and I get this feeling of being trapped by the weekend.  How fucked up am I that the change in my week's pattern of two days off is dreadful to me.  I can't face change without worrying, even a weekend! Grrrrrr!!!! Yeah,  that sums up how I feel. Well I'm going to give an antidepressant a try,  I need something to help me find a way through this shit.

I want to write more but I'm drained,  hungry and don't want to have to go up in to the kitchen and cook dinner and be a mess from letting to much out...  My roommate is having a nice evening with his girl and I don't want to take that away from them,  they need it.  So I'll write more over the weekend and I'm going to try and keep writing more and more often.

One last thing,  does anyone else get face tingles and numbness,  I hate it,  it's caused by anxiety,  and it's self perpetuating,  cuz it only makes me think I'm stroking out and that just feeds the beast and then I have to go get my little white lights of hope to slay the beast Xanax (I love how my autocorrect on this phone always suggests Xanadu for Xanax and all I can think about is that crappy ass movie from like 1980 with Olivia Newton John).